but i dont know how shoot a machete

You could be about anything but it doesn’t quite matter when you get down to it, I would never get that far.

I cocked my head a little bit the other day at the notion that others could possibly perceive and understand what goes through my mind. Its easy to separate people or in this case friends into various categories on what they may or may not think about me, at least this was how i felt for a good while. Out of practicality I think I will spare you the details, however, its worth mentioning that maybe its not quite as cut and dry as I once thought. I have a feeling that more people understand how dire a scenario can be without leading on. Or perhaps the proper wording of that last sentence should read, i am nowhere as good at making pretend then i really like to think.

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You’re so hot, good thing you’re cold. Sometimes I wonder if the way I perceive things are to blame for my ‘mishaps.’ Perhaps its like seeing an image in those magic eye books except there really isn’t an image to be seen on page one.

The only proof I have to not being absolutely crazy and in the wrong in my perception is the complete and utter confusion I cause to others when it is brought to their attention. Never has there been a scenario where a heartfelt confrontation has occurred, gingerly skirting over the issue without causing complete pain. Always quite the opposite; encouragement to the point beyond hope, nearly fact. Of course theres always the turning point where utter confusion sets in. The point that I always know is coming and almost just wait for. The one that baffles everyone around me except myself.

You think I’d learn my lesson for once and yet here I am combining two into one. Its hard to believe that math was one of my strong points when all I do is look the other way at the clear equation.